Basically, I'm trying to find a way to set up a sufficient revenue stream, or perhaps shake a sufficient windfall of coconuts from the trees, to get to a neutral country, or travel between a series of neutral countries, with a very basic existence, such as I almost had for the last two years or so -- sufficient to read, think and do real writing.
I've set forth elsewhere the headwinds that I have been facing, and continue to face. I've also outlined the corruption that I've encountered that has effectively blocked my efforts to have a career in my own country.
Frankly, someone with my degrees and experience wouldn't be in this position in a rational market or a well-ordered society. But I'm still not sure how to characterize a situation that isn't commonly thought to exist. An American Navalny, perhaps. It's my understanding he was a Russian patriot. Solzhenitsyn has often come to mind.
So I can only fight for this by fighting for this -- a neutral country, or a place of safe internal exile. I can't tell the story of what it is for me to have to do this. That will have to come later. The analogies, the contexts, the inference. A political reality always arrives in advance of its stories and aesthetics.
For now, I have to fight for the thing itself, not as someone inside a cultural narrative.